The Amber Project

This group is intended and has been created for those who self-​harm them selves because they are depressed and they feel like they want to end their lives…
I went to this group on a Wednesday morning or afternoon, can’t quiet remember what time of the day I went, but it was deffienetly on that day of every week, for so many weeks of the year… I didn’t cut myself, but I have been depressed enough to wish I was dead, but if it weren’t for the thought and a terrible fear of Physical pain, the lack of control over my own body and the fear of going to hell afterwards…
I felt like I was more evil than the Devil though, and useless to God, still do every now and then, but thanks to God; this place, family, friends and the church that I go to and since having gone to University and to have actually graduated there and how great my experience had been there I am enjoying life a lot more… I love to travel, to write and make creative things, to read and am just generally trying to enjoy life more, roughly without breaking any rules of God’s law or the worlds… but if this world’s rules contradic God’s then watch out world!!!

I went here really though because I was doing a computer course with a computer company and they new this company and they only mentioned it to me because they do re-​inactments of a real life situation that someone in the group has been in and they let the group act it out, by practising and at the end of the course they can do a performance in front of friends and family only.
This group became a really special group to me; because I felt even though I hadn’t gone as far as taking my life, I was close to doing so and I still very often and still do every now and then, not as much, I become depressed within myself and Iscolate myself from the world because of feeling depressed, I felt that not only could I use the acting experience of it well, but I could use the experience of bonding with people that I can sympathise with and show the same level of understanding with so that they can, if not more so than myself feeling better about myself, but so that can feel better about themseleves…
It was certainly something different to do, the place was located on Charles Street in Cardiff’s town centre and in a building under a different name, next to a lovely old fashioned looking church and near Marks & Spencer’s. The staff who either work their perminently work there or who were still training as some kind of health care worker where all really; really friendly, lovely, kind, and caring to be around and we had free food!
We also played many ball games or all kinds of people bonding games and had a session of answering questions and by us individually asking some back to the leaders and to each and sometimes we swopped life stories.
It’s a great way to meet friends, to do some acting a bit and it’s a great way to become a much more confident person and to grow happier about yourself and it really isn’t as cheesy an experience as you may think, I was nicely surprised.
I recommend it to anyone who is depressed; who cuts themselves and to all those who feel like an outcast and like there is nothing left for them in the world, like there is no real reason to live.